Saw the "Age of Adeline" again after an interesting day

On today, I had to put Vincent in check after he attempted to hug/harrass Steph. He stsrted huffing and puffing, but i didn't give a flip, because he was wrong, and Steph was uncomfortable. No one should have to put up with that kind of shit. After that happened, we kept the doors closed to to Staff area. Also, i came to the conclusion on today that the Duncanville Cheddars is not a good place to patronize. Besides the issue with their credit card machine, the waitress was very blase, and the manager didn't offer his apologies in person for jacking up my lunch hour. Instead of easting my $$$ worh Cheddars, i went to Braums, and spent 60% less than i would have at Cheddars.

Before we closed, that young black mother with thw three kids came in agai. And let her children run like wild animals. When 1 of her sons tried to stab me with a pencil, i wanted to spano his little ass. When i let her know about him trying to stab me, she tells the security guard, "Officer, arrest him." i decided not to joke about this, and instead told her that shes the Mom, so therefore she needed ti handle it. She carried them/him for 9 months and will be taking care of him until the day that she dies, and so thetefore she has to handle it. Because if the woman i. baltimore can hanfle it, sheo could too.

When i got home after work, i wanted to just settle in, but my bro decided to watch some true crime show. Since i was somewhat agitated, i decided to get away and go somewhere to eat and read. While i was on the way to Denny's, I decided to go ahead and use my Groupon to see "The Age of Adeline" once more before the Avengers 2 take over the theatres and push movies like Adeline out...

I just wanted to relax. This wasn't meant for me to complain.

I decree and declare that this is going to be an awesome day!!!

This is going to be one of the best days of my Life😘

Awesome Day...

I had a great day on today... I took care of my vehicle registration, paid off two library fines, had some food, and saw 2 movies.. One of which was "Furious 7" for the 3rd time! I loved it, so i don't care if i come off weird or anything...

The 2nd movie that i saw was "The Age of Adelaine." The primary male character in that movie was absolutely gorgeous!!! And I mean like "Wow!!!" Just absolutely breathtaking...






A Simply gorgeous, who just happens to star in a great movie...

I'm giving the movie an A-...

Premenstrual Blues

Simply put, I am horny, and i want some relief un the form of 3-4 deep orgasms that will knock my socks off. I wish that i had my own condo, where i could just ride a sybian all night long. I am a 44 year old woman who longs to be touched, but hates being touched by strange people.

Closure, Research Papers, and a sigh of relief

OK, so this morning, I sent Tim a message regarding the fact that I am no longer angry, and that I wish him well in his marriage. I told to him that I've been praying for him, and that I wish that things had turned out differently, that we'd been friends or associates.

I felt so nervous writing that message because you never know how someone is going to reach to you. You don't know if they're going to agree that peace needs to be brokered, or if they will somehow find a way to once again stomp your mended heart into shattered pieces.

I hate conflict, I really do.

I just wonder:

1. Will he respond?
2. What will he say, and how will he say it?

I just want to move forward by draining the bitterness, and getting some closure.

Sunday, Runday

Yesterday was an interesting day. It was a fairly good day at church. However, being the logical thinker that I am, a few things didn't jibe, but I've chalked it up to having to " follow onto know."

Yesterday evening was trippy because in a sense, it felt like I was undergoing some type of spiritual warfare, or maybe it was just my logic getting in the way.

I love God,  I love my Pastor and I love my church, but I have a problem with reconciling the m-l-m as being legitimate, and I'm beginning to question this drawn out currency exchange wait.

I've read up on a particular exchange guru, and frankly, he sounds like a frickin shiester in the flesh. I don't know if that is the person that she subscribes to, and if so, what am I to do with that?

I believe that God is going to bless us. I believe that God is going to bless me. And I have to just deal with these doubt's before it takes me out and derails my future.

For 17 years, I've walked this road, and it definitely hasn't always been easy. For me, rejection is a big fear, and I have to overcome it without sacrificing my character and integrity.

But what am I to do when certain things are staring me dead in my face?

Does God see me as a doubting sinful heathen? Am I wrong to question what goes on at church?

At what point does it become sin for me to question what goes on?

Will my Pastor and my church reject and shun me?

Will God kick me to the curb because I'm have these doubt's?

What can I do?

2nd Thoughts from an Introspective thinker/Nerd

OK, so I've had about 12 hours and ponder the stuff that happened on yesterday, and what I've discovered is this, at this later time in my life, I'm starting to get some self-respect, I'm learning to set some boundaries, and I'm learning to cut people off when they prove themselves to be untrustworthy. I'm thankful for a developing sense if discernment, and I'm thankful that I've learned to truly love and respect myself. Although "Tim" happened, it was a good thing. Because that situation taught me where my weaknesses were and it taught me to get on the stick and work on me. That whole fairytale about a man coming to rescue me, just isn't true. It's only by the Grace of God that my life will count for something good.