Was really sad & depressed on this morning. Cried some, which felt like a relief. Was asking myself, "why all of this sadness?" Wondered if I was crying because of his rejection of me as a woman, or because I'd lost someone that I'd really liked, like I haven't done in a long, long, long time...Also, I wondered if it was a combination of the two, along with a really good dose of shame. I do feel ashamed. I feel ashamed that i could allow myself to be duped like that. I feel like the Weird and not to mention Awkward Nerd who was suckered by the Popular High School Jock into doing his homework. I feel like such a fool. What really feels bad is that that bastard doesn't have a clue or if he does, he just doesn't give a damn about how manipulative that he really was. What I want to know is, when is this going to be made right? And when am I going to be able to laugh his dumb behavior off